I Can’t Even Cry

Thought you were the one for me, I did

Thought you were the one that I’d be with

Strollin’ hand in hand like little kids

Until you turned around and fucked with it

Now I can’t help but wanna be alone

Pack up my bags and walk out the door

Know that I’m about to lose this war

But I can’t remember what I been

fighting for

It is love or is it something different?

Voice of caution in my eardrums but I never listen

Opening my heart to the thing it’s missing

But I’m scared of all the hoping and the wishful thinking

Cos love can be a marvel but it can be vicious

Cut you til you’re bleeding without no permission

Til tears are in your eyes, love’ll blur your vision

Blur your vision

But I can’t even cry, cry

So many sleepless nights, nights

I’ve been asking myself why, why

As hard as I try, I’m as cold as ice

Petrified, I can’t even cry

Cry, I can’t even cry

I know that one day I’ll find my feet

I’ll be with somebody who loves me

Loves me hard enough to leave me be

Who gives me the time and space to breathe

Been makin’ my peace with what the future holds

Embracing all the things that I don’t know

Everyone I’ll meet and where I’ll go

Remember what I was fighting for

If it’s love or if it’s something different

Voice of caution in my eardrums and I’ll start to listen

I’ll open my heart to the thing it’s missing

I’ll stop being scared of all the wishful thinking

Cos love can be a marvel but it can be vicious

Swear I’ll learn to feel again, make it my mission

Til tears are in my eyes, love will blur my vision

But for now, I

I can’t even cry, cry

So many sleepless nights, nights

I’ve been asking myself why, why

As hard as I try, I’m as cold as ice

Petrified, I can’t even cry

Cry, I can’t even cry

Cry, cry, cry

Cry, cry

I can’t even cry, cry, cry

As hard as I try, I’m as cold as ice

Petrified, I can’t even